Monday, December 19, 2011

What to do, what to do

What do you do when you're wronged? Hurt? I like to call it "slapped in the face." Despite circumstances, someone took something out of your control and pushed it back at you until it injured you.
For me, it happened today. A big, hard, slap. Right on my face.
The worst part is re-living it. Imagining it from their point of view. Almost being tortured by it.
So what do you do? Better question is, what am I going to do now?
I think... I'm just going to live my life. I'm going to laugh my hardest (maybe even cry my hardest at some points), & embrace every aspect of where I am and where I'm going, because God is going to use these moments to form me even more.
So as a broken, open, wounded vessel, I'll say: "Here I am, Lord. You know where I am." And just as every other time, He will embrace me. He will treat me with respect and with care, as if I am the most important human being in the entire world. He will promise me that He will never do anything like what has happened to me. He will never betray me. He will never attack me. He will never misuse my trust or trade my honor for any reason, because I am a treasure.
I am excited for the future. I am hesitant to learn from pain, but I know in the end it only makes me stronger in Him, and that's what I desire more than anything in this world. To be strong in Him and have my strength be reliant upon His.
I love you, Jesus. Arms up, everything cast aside and surrendered, have Your way.

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