Where you are in life, and who you are in life are incredibly important.
How many minutes do I waste and want and pine? Wishing I were somewhere else and planning to be somewhere else? How many times do I put thought into questions that only bring worry and stress?
These questions, they nag at us. They drive us crazy. And here's the funny thing -
We'll never really know the full answer. We're really just wasting time and energy being insecure.
I'm guilty of this incredibly. For me, it's "Why can't I have my life figured out like them?"
Well, to myself, and to anyone who does read this -
You're not them. That's why.
Don't be intimidated if no one around you is experiencing your specific journey. This is your life, and you are the only you that exists. That means your path is pretty unique, and it's probably not going to look like everyone else's.
And if you're thinking that people don't care, or they're forgetting about you, or whatever it is that the insecurity is biting away at you for, can you please just relax? Be comfortable in your own skin or something, and let people love you for you. If they don't, it's seriously their loss.
Most importantly, be comfortable knowing that no matter who you are, where you are, or even what you've done or haven't done, what you have figured out or haven't figured out, God sees you, loves you, and accepts you just as you are, where you are, and for who you are. He's got this big picture He painted from before you were born, and He understands it best.
More than anything, can I let myself relax in the knowledge that God loves me for me? Can you?
I'm not saying I have any of this figured out, but it doesn't mean I'm not learning. I just think that in the midst of all the uncertainty in my life, I'm understanding even more that God has a way for me, and it's specific and intricate, and that's ok. I want to learn to celebrate that, even if I don't understand it.
How about you?